DOWN

I dont know what to think right now, Im just feeling so guilty, upset, and just really sad.

I usually understand it when the preacher tells me that God loves, and he hasn't forgotten, but im honestly
in this position to cry, what do i do? I tried to build up my faith and charecter but today i feel like i ran a journey and lost my destination. I know i have to continue looking upwards, my parents tell me not to worry
but how can i keep ignore all that is happening. Its starting to really eat away at me, i wanna cry cause if i dont, this situation will definently consume me...